I
got some answers today on questions I’ve had for months. They were good answers because they were
true. They were bad answers because they
weren’t what I wanted. It was too long
to wait to get those kinds of answers, and yet I’m relieved.
This
life is full of challenges and obstacles and amazingly different personalities. Each of us is equipped in different ways to
handle them. And then there’s
Jesus. It’s almost like cheating. I’ve never been more thankful for Jesus in my
life than on a day like today when I can lean on Him. As my protector He was my deflector shield
and as a peacemaker He was able to unwrinkle the things I had said that inadvertently
hurt others.
It’s
almost like cheating to know that no matter what I’m a child of God and I’m
loved and adored by the creator of the universe. Because some days He’s the only one that
feels that way about me.
It’s
almost like cheating to have someone fused in my Spirit that comforts me and
gives me hope. Because some days we are
not consolable and we cannot see.
It’s
almost like cheating to have someone in my life I can always count on…a Rock. Because some days there is nobody else.
I
would write this story I’m in with a different ending if I was the author. So as always I step back and look at the big
picture. This moment of “blah” is an
opportunity to follow the story being written by God. It’s not as fun as the “ah-ha” moments or the
shiny powerful happy moments, but it’s an opportunity nevertheless.
In
the trusting the ‘blah’ we thirst for the shiny. What I need to surrender to in my heart today
is thirsting for the Author and not just His better stories.
